harloo...
i had lived in this cruel world for 18 years and i just can't feel it...i personally thinks that time really flies....
I seriously dun want to grow out... 2 more years to my 20s...omg can't believe it....
ok how i spent the mark of my 18 years....
HOME!
yup thats rite...staying at home study for common test which is tml....there should be school today...but presentation postpone and tutorial cancel hence no sch today....
people thinks that how lucky am I but i think that how unlucky am I cos not goin to sch will make me more worry for the test tml...
i dun feel like studying becos i find it pointless cos...i do all those paper without the answer how ami suppose to noe am i doin it correctly or...yup i'm not confident enough with my answers....why???

cos lack of practice i guess...its not that i didn't practice....but the question i have its in the notes which i had tried many many times...but i'm afraid that when the question change i will not be able to answer it....ok enough of al this...cos all this is increasing my anxiety.
i should just relax and enjoy my day huh....but i just hate the results that i've get....i had ythe gurl dere that she thinks she smart...keep boasting ard her results....harloo i didn't even say i got ful marks tat time and u still dare to go ard and say ur results...i really really need to win you to increase my confidence but i'm lack of motivation....someone just slapped my face and ask me to wake up.....i keep saying i will really really study for the next sem but....i still haven even seriously study for my test....maybe its because somewhere inside me is sastified witht heresults i'm getting but I'M NOT....my goal is to get into NUS if not o'm not goin to study anymore..my results are not getting me anywhere except
NTU...not that i dun want to go NTU but i need to cos all my siblings went there....this put me into a challenge cos i need to get at least a 3.9 to get into where i want to be...until now i'm still getting a 3.8....
i will stop here ...BYE!(:
-JiNx-

OKAY back from Hokkaido.
Everything seems to be a dream to me. Trying to believe what i had dreamt about. It was a happy trip afterall. Like everything there and also try the Onsen...ok dun ask me abt it cos its quite awkward. Try it 2 times and wala back.
I don't know why this trip seems to be short to me as compare to the trip to Korea. Isit b'cos of the weather? I don't know. just don't want this dream to stop. I want to see what will happen next, but I'm back to this old place that hope i was never in before. Quite a sentimental post arh. Woke up early in the morning, which is like 6.30. maybe b'cos of jet lag. cos Japan is 1hr faster than where i am.
didn't sleep in the plane yesterday. watch 3 movies. Green Zone, The Bounty Hunter and Alice in Wonderland.
ok like the second show more. Funny show.
Didn't sleep in the plane b'cos i really dun feel like losing any moment here. I just want to treasure every single moment and keep it in my memories but i think this make it worst cos this 'thing' stucks to my head which also the reason i woke up early hoping the dream is not over yet.
sounds confuse right...haha try to understand it slowly.
Having watery eyes why writing the previous sentence not b'cs i'm tired but just emotional at that moment. i just hope that everything will be over asap.
School starts tomorrow but....i'm not goin' cos i had complete my part therefore i do not need to go school on Monday for the next 6 weeks.
Something more emotional for the next few paragraphs.
something came across my mind when i was in the trip.
I need to find my definition for LOVE. i guess i find the difinition for it. There is alot meaning for it. Loving a place, loving a person and most importantly love your family. And i FELL IN LOVE with the sky. People will be wondering ... the SKY????WTF u must be kidding me.
ok True enough wad so great about the sky. People are thinking is dere really heaven???
And i can say it out loud confidently, There is really a place call heaven. The sky is really beautiful( maybe onli at certain parts)
The shape of the clouds looks like mountains, trees and land which are covered with thick snows.
i was imagining myself standing there skiing.Okay i can't actually describe everything ho wi felt about it cos u might be thinkin, is it realy so good about the sky. u must experience it yourself . maybe not everyone had this kind of feeling but for me i think i like the sky more than the land. this make me more persistent on my dream...i dunno whether i can fulfilled it but i still want to try it out.
Ok it seems that i had not define anything yet. What i was trying to say is. Love is not something u can simply give away, and when u truly feel it, it is the time u want to keep it in your heart and never let it slip away.
Ok i will stop here probably will post some photos that i had taken.
-JiNx-

Just finish watching The A Team....quite a nice show to watch will give it a 8/10...actually 7 but + 1 b'cos i think one of the character was quite atractive....haha....a funny show and at the same time exciting.... making me want to be part of the team...doin such things need quite a big brain....all those strategy stuff....and also need guts....ok i think i canot be part of the team cos i got none of the above...haha...

Went to Singapore ytd and did some shopping saw some of a coursemates....What a small world...yup indeed....Singapore is a small country....BUT still did not manage to see people that i like to meet....ok forget atbout it....

Upload the video below...
Totally love it!!!!!!(: this setting of the video makes me connect with twilight....haha maybe mke reference with twilight huh...hahaha...

If I Had You!!! like it...so high after watching the video...this video was said to be people of different skin colour and religion come together to party or dance... haha...good msg send...

ok write until here..buaix...oiya...will be leaving for Hokkaido on Sunday...maybe will update after that...buaix

Enjoy watching!!!!(:

-JiNx-

Didn't go school today..but woke up veri early...

Today is 1st of June that means 29 days to my b'day...haha...sound so long..feeling veri tired right now...just feel so bored so i decided to blog...but nthing happen...nthing to write...stop here....see later anything to write or not(: